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[unicornduke]

 I'm trying to convince myself to get some errands run after work and it just feels impossible for some reason

too dark, can't leave the apartment

and by after work, I mean, after I get home, walk the dog and feed her. 

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[dragonlady7]

oh no i have this problem a lot. i get like, locked in to my idea of what's possible. like, now that i'm home, i can't possibly go back out because it's dark and it's late. i also get locked in to things like... oh dude has my car parked in so i can't possibly get my car out and go anywhere, i'll have to wait until the next time he's going somewhere so i can get out.
when like. i could just. move his car. i could even put it in front of the fire hydrant while i get mine out, and then put it back and drive mine away. but it's too many steps so i can't even begin it, and i absolutely can't ask for help, that's just crazy talk!!!
it's so frustrating. i hope you get unstuck.

[unicornduke]

thanks, I'm going to try.

I need food because battenkill's truck broke down so I wasn't able to get milk and I just got really unfocused after that point and didn't go to the grocery store so I have cream from the week before and eggs but no milk so I can't eat granola for breakfast because I have no milk and then I just straight up forgot to make something for lunch today so I have canned chicken and rice that I don't particularly want to eat but I'm hungry so I will. And no eating out unless I want granola bars from stewarts. I have extra rice that I made last night, why didn't I bring that? I also forgot to bring an apple. what was I doing this morning.

but last night I managed to put my laundry away, do all my dishes, email an invoice so that's all done I guess.

But I've got dinner made from last night so that's something.

But I really do need to get some things done on the week nights because like, I can't just pack all this shit onto the weekends, then I wouldn't have any time to sit around and/or do stuff!

maybe tonight I will manage to 1. get to the grocery store 2. go to the hardware store since it's close although it closes at 7 so it doesn't leave a lot of time to get there

I also need to work out/stretch tonight.

(fuck grocery stores)

[dragonlady7]

grocery stores are the worrrrst
actually i hate hardware stores even worse because i have some kind of mental defect where I walk into a Home Depot and immediately forget why I'm there. It's a little less bad in an Ace or something but it's never good. My eyes kind of glaze over and I'm like "paint chips" and then I never buy whatever the fuck it was. I literally have resorted to buying lightbulbs on Amazon because I was so tired of going to the store for them and coming back with something entirely else.
(drain cleaner. i have so much drain cleaner.)
(i already forgot what it is that i realized i needed when i got home from there the last time)
(but it wasn't drain cleaner)
(which i have more of now)

[graydon]

Checklists can help.

If it's "aigh too much social monkey emulation aigh", getting home, feeding the dog, and flaking out for half an hour can help, too. Critical brain reset from "I am done, I am done, today was too long, too many people" to "I need food, I can do the thing".

[unicornduke]

I'm a big fan of checklists. They help me out a lot.

I think it's more a momentum problem. Once I sit down, I don't really get up. But I'm tired so I don't want to do anything before I sit down plus I'm usually hungry by that point, ~5-6pm. Plus food makes me tired.

The best time is before I get home if my errands don't take long, I can usually get them done. Like stopping through the post office, making a fast grocery store trip. But for something like the hardware store, I'll need a solid hour for my current project and it's hard to convince myself to do that. But I got some other stuff done around the apartment.

[graydon]

That does sound like your blood sugar is completely crashing at the end of the day. Good reason to get checked for diabetes, good reason to eat something around three in the afternoon. (Possibly two. The "excuse me, have you seen my brain?" time varies a good deal across people.)

I find hard boiled eggs work pretty well; so does dried fruit. (I mean, fresh fruit, too. But dried usually wins on portability and storage.)

[unicornduke]

I've done fasting blood work and nothing ever shows up. If it happened more, I'd be more concerned about it.

It doesn't happen much maybe every other month, if only because I'm on a pretty steady consistent food schedule. I eat every 2-3 hours throughout the day unless I"m out of food like yesterday and skip my morning snack, which is what caused it I think.

shrugs

[graydon]

Makes sense! Good to have it checked, but there eleventy causes so agree no need to worry. (Despite being an utter fussbudget.)

Missed input causing lowered output seems totally plausible. :)