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Conference is done
Feb. 23rd, 2025 08:44 amI am slowly checking things off the last time list.
Last time I'll see a lot of my coworkers in person
Last time I had to work that conference
Last time I had to deal with name tags
The conference went well for sure, but all I could think was thank goodness I don't need to do this again. I feel very jaded and tired compared to one of my coworkers who is only two years into a job similar to mine. Probably good that I'm leaving. Plus, my position is more covered by grants than the people I support including federal grants. Which are all in limbo. Someone said ag stuff wasn't going to be cut (lol that's wrong, there's already been cuts) but no grant reviews are happening until this all gets figured out. The team keeps a bank of money on hand for the salaries of the specialists if something goes wrong, but I'm not a specialist and would just get laid off. C'est la vie.
I wore a mask the whole time as did my nice coworker who I like a lot. I already told her about my plan and she's reliable and trustworthy, so she's kept quiet. I told her anytime she wanted to come down and visit the farm, she was welcome to.
I think I need some lawn furniture for outdoor parties. Fire pit in the backyard. Maybe some bushes.
I deleted a bunch of videos off my phone today to make some space (backups in two places) and it made me sad because I had a bunch of videos of Mara from before she started having mobility issues. She was so happy. It doesn't hurt me as bad anymore, not so sharp. It's been almost a year. I miss having a dog and I miss Mara.
Big work trip Tuesday, I need to leave for the airport at 3am which is probably too early for my flight, but I can't help it. I'm doing laundry and packing today. I've been grinding through sidejob work because I had a lot of requests come in this past week and I'm only taking my work computer with me and can't do sidejob work on it. I won't get them all done, I had to send back around half for questions or clarifications, so I'll get to those after I get back. I am getting around my sidejob computer struggles by using my personal computer for 99% of it, including purchasing pdf xchange editor as an alternate to adobe and only using the side job computer for the single piece of software I can't get yet. This seems to be a good work around because the side job computer will give up on being alive if I open too many programs and I need to have multiple things open to do this work. So if I only use it for that program, it's fine.
March is rapidly approaching and it's alarming. I think I'm just feeling a little maudlin this morning. Lots of transitions and it's making me reflect a bit. I wonder if I'm making the right choice and if I'll be happy. I wonder if I should move back down. Ah well. No answers from the universe. There is a cat yelling in the other room, but he doesn't have any answers because he's got no brain cells
Last time I'll see a lot of my coworkers in person
Last time I had to work that conference
Last time I had to deal with name tags
The conference went well for sure, but all I could think was thank goodness I don't need to do this again. I feel very jaded and tired compared to one of my coworkers who is only two years into a job similar to mine. Probably good that I'm leaving. Plus, my position is more covered by grants than the people I support including federal grants. Which are all in limbo. Someone said ag stuff wasn't going to be cut (lol that's wrong, there's already been cuts) but no grant reviews are happening until this all gets figured out. The team keeps a bank of money on hand for the salaries of the specialists if something goes wrong, but I'm not a specialist and would just get laid off. C'est la vie.
I wore a mask the whole time as did my nice coworker who I like a lot. I already told her about my plan and she's reliable and trustworthy, so she's kept quiet. I told her anytime she wanted to come down and visit the farm, she was welcome to.
I think I need some lawn furniture for outdoor parties. Fire pit in the backyard. Maybe some bushes.
I deleted a bunch of videos off my phone today to make some space (backups in two places) and it made me sad because I had a bunch of videos of Mara from before she started having mobility issues. She was so happy. It doesn't hurt me as bad anymore, not so sharp. It's been almost a year. I miss having a dog and I miss Mara.
Big work trip Tuesday, I need to leave for the airport at 3am which is probably too early for my flight, but I can't help it. I'm doing laundry and packing today. I've been grinding through sidejob work because I had a lot of requests come in this past week and I'm only taking my work computer with me and can't do sidejob work on it. I won't get them all done, I had to send back around half for questions or clarifications, so I'll get to those after I get back. I am getting around my sidejob computer struggles by using my personal computer for 99% of it, including purchasing pdf xchange editor as an alternate to adobe and only using the side job computer for the single piece of software I can't get yet. This seems to be a good work around because the side job computer will give up on being alive if I open too many programs and I need to have multiple things open to do this work. So if I only use it for that program, it's fine.
March is rapidly approaching and it's alarming. I think I'm just feeling a little maudlin this morning. Lots of transitions and it's making me reflect a bit. I wonder if I'm making the right choice and if I'll be happy. I wonder if I should move back down. Ah well. No answers from the universe. There is a cat yelling in the other room, but he doesn't have any answers because he's got no brain cells
