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MY MOM DOES THIS TOO!!!
It's often like, I'm talking about something and stop paying attention to myself and so offhandedly make some comment like, "and like, sometimes things are like, blue or whatever probably," and move on with my life, and months later she's like "WHAT ABT THE BLUE THINGS" and I'm like "the what now? What?" and if I'm lucky, I'll remember that sometimes things are in different colors, blue among them, and I must have mentioned that, and I'll be like "oh most of them turned out green this time?" and she's like "YOU SAID BLUE" and I'm like "I said blue SOMETIMES MAYBE and it's the LEAST important thing about this thing I've been involved in" and she's all "jeez you don't have to be so defensive."
But sometimes I won't remember, and then it's that I'm clearly deliberately misleading her about blue things, and I honestly don't remember and if I'm lucky enough that one of the things turned out blue it might jog my memory, but otherwise I'm literally like "I have no idea what you're talking about? I spoke for twenty minutes about this thing and all you can think of is that it ought to be blue? It's like basically never blue?" and she's like, Oppressed by my Whimsical Changeable Nature and you know, she called it, when I was four and couldn't pay attention to anything, I've been away with the fairies my whole life...
And it's not even that she likes blue or that it matters, it's just that's the single thing she's retained and that's the thing she's told literally everyone who ever asks after me, so now they all think I'm some kind of Blue Expert and it's really confusing when I can't come up with a single blue example.

There's a reason I live far away from my mother, who I love very much, and with whom I have lovely conversations, but to whom I don't confide a whole hell of a lot because that's how she listens.